haha.  its been a longggg time since i updated this.  so here's some for you.  i suppose.  if i get comments on this, maybe i'll update more often. ;]

it was empty on the edge of town, but we knew everyone floated along the bottom of the river. so we walked through the waste where the road curved into the sea and the shattered seasons lay, and the bitter smell of burning was on you like a disease.

the echoes of the past broke the hearts of the unborn as the Ferris wheel silently slowed to a stop. the few insects skittered away in hopes of a better pastime.

the sky had come crashing down like the news of an intimate suicide. we picked up the shards and formed them into shapes of stars that wore like an antique wedding dress.

and now as the snow starts falling down, i think as it covers the town, if i go this time i can't come back around.

and i scream for the sunlight or a car to take me anywhere, just get me past this dead and eternal snow because i swear that i am dying, slowly but its happening.

My cold, hard heart exposed, finally, for what it truly was. Fair warning, I thought. I should have told you from the start. I will let you down

thanks for all your wonderful comments guys.  that makes me smile.  keep it up!  and for those of you wanting my song...look down at my previous entries and you'll see the code.  please stop asking me!  just pay attention. 

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dearly beloved, we are gathered here today to mourn the unmailed letters and the lonely decembers. the children ask, does it ever go away? they`re asking about heartache and you know better than to lie so you answer truthfully and you say, no, it doesn`t, it doesn`t go away. one day you`re jumping in puddles and the next thing you know 30 years have passed and you`re telling your kids to walk around them. everyone is taught to look both ways before crossing the street and to talk quietly in the library, but no one ever learns anything that matters, like how to keep breathing when your heart breaks in half.

i walk around, i'm moving to the sounds
of people screaming in my ear.
i can only see you in my life,
i thought this would last a lifetime. 
Me and you, god, we are perfect together,
i act myself around you and
you act yourself around me
what more could anyone want,
we really love each other i know we do,
maybe we don't show it but we both know it's there,
but you dont have to ignore me,
i didn't do anything to you, baby i love you,
i've told you that, please don't make it end,
we've been through so much,
we walked miles to be with each other,
i have blisters in the back of my feet from it,
we started out as friends,
we knew we were going to be together. 
Please, don't let this break, i can't live without you. 
I need your strong hugs, and arms around me.
I need your touch, and the gentle kiss of your lips on mine. 
Nothing can change how i feel about you. 
I love you more than anything. 
Don't let this break.

i hope to God i mean a little more
then the sounds that escape your tired
4 A.M. lips, & oh how i wish i meant
a little more then a symphony of heavy
breathing and the friction of hips

alright.  so i'm kinda sick.  and i've got nothing else to do.  so i'll update.   please comment me and make me smile. 

so here we lie in this beautiful mess of
tangled sheets and beads of sweat. with my
heart in your hand and my neck in the
other, should i be scared or should i come
closer? but it's still beating i'm still breathing.
you haven't hurt me yet.

we're so close.
but you're shaking
far too much.
just let the sky take hold of us.

the taste of love is sweet
when hearts like ours meet.

you hold my hands to your chest,
i love to hear your heart beat.
especially when i know
it beats just for me.

from underneath the trees,
we watch the sky
confusing stars for satellites.
i never dreamed that you'd be mine
but here we are.
we're here tonight.

how does it feel to know
you're everything i need
the butterflies in my stomach
they could bring me to my knees

& we tend the garden all day long
watching history unfold
and i'd be enough
& you'd be enough
and we'd grow old

when he kisses you, he isn't doing anything else.
you're his whole universe and the moment is
eternal because he doesn't have any plans
& isn't going anywhere,
just kissing you
& it's overwhelming

the most comfortable place in the world
is me & you
my head on your chest
feeling in rise & fall
& your heart beat
your arms wrapped around me
holding me so tight

since EVERYONE is asking me for this song...

here is the url:

http://www.melz.utvinternet.com/Titanic/Music/Myhear~1.mp3

now you have it.  please stop asking me about it.

& i'm sorry, i won't be doing updates for like 2 weeks.  i now have play practice every night until 9pm and on saturday from 9-5.  so my days are busy as hellll right now.  i'm sorry guys.  please keep on commenting and subscribing!

thank you guys.

<3 Emillie

Happy Valentine's Day dearies!

Please comment & subscribe for me.  <3

s o j u s t h o l d h e r c l o s e
&& let her see the world clearly
for the first time in her life

i may be small
i may look sweet
but baby i know
how to move my feet

all i want is a guy who
would memorize my
favorite song, just to
sing it to me when i`m feeling down

promises are just lies
with pretty ribbons
tied around them </3

A friend is someone who will trade thier
grape popsicle for your yucky orange one.

Lo: Stephen can you make me a hotdog?
Stephen: You make yourself one.
Lo: But i dont know how. Can u make it for me?
Stephen: High maintenance little bitch.
--laguna beach

You can`t live your life for other people.
you`ve got to do whats right for you ;;`
even if it hurts some people that you love <3
-- The Notebook

maybe if i weren`t so good at
pretending to be happy, I might
learn to actually be happy.
* dawsons creek

i`m afraid that i`ll end up alone.
i`m scared that i`m always gonna be the sister or
the friend or the confidant,
never quite somebody`s everything.
i`m scared that i`ll never find a guy that i`ll love as
much as i love you.     * dawsons creek

& for valentines day i don`t want any
chocolates. i want a boy who will go to
the little machines with plastic rings in
it & kneel down on one knee & ask me
to be his * valentine *

there`s nothing a girl wants more
<3 than something she can`t have

michael: you could have picked anyone - and you picked still picked me - why?
mia: because you saw me when i was invisible
* princess diaries

she`s an artist;
a good painter actually.
see that smile on her face?
it`s her most famous piece.

but your lack of cooking skills won't stop
you from making me a valentines dinner;
easy mac & pop tarts has never tasted so good

he swings her around.
they kiss while the city around them ;
disappears.

& she just wasnt good enough,
she`d kill for the day she would be.

love. pretty crazy eh?  <3333